sometimes i feel that i should be happy for where i am and not hope too much, saw what my gf posted. "you are the greatest sweetie" so much so that i really want just to get a job and settle down with you because i know you will stay with me through thick and thin just like where we are now. and not want to study further, but i do hope that if either of us were to go study we will stand by each other to give support.

but if you really forsee that you will not stand by either of us going to study in the future, maybe we should just go on our way now cos i don't want to reach the state that i really cannot let go "i am at that stage now or at least i think i am"

"what the hell..."