Thursday, December 15, 2011

I took another look at my passport photo. Never thought that I would be able to smile from the bottom of my heart again.

Thank you for sharing your life with me to make me complete and make my life happy once again.

Love you loads sweetie can't wait till you are back tomorrow =)

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

I feel so alone in the relationship when what I say don't matter even it's for the better of the 2 of us.

I feel so alone in the relationship when someone who matter as much as I am suppose to said something and you don't have the moral courage stand up to that person even though I have given you the reason.

I feel so alone in the relationship when only your family matters and my family don't seem to matters. when I always consider how your family view you but you don't seem to consider how my family will view me.

I am tired when I have tried to consider everyone and everyone just treat my consideration as he is ok with anything.

I am sad when you say that you do not want to come over to stay together because my house is not in the condition that you want from the way you put across to me and not about being not used to.

From now on I will give you my concern over matters but you have to stand up to the people that you need to account for and if I am going to account for you then I am going to put across thing matter of factly because it is no longer about seeking opinion from the others but about informing whoever is outside the 2 of us due to necessity.

I love you and will support you in the things you have stand up for the better of the 2 of us and whatever I have is what we will have to make do with beyond the actual day affair.

"qing bu yao ba wo de fang bian dang cheng sui bian"

Saturday, October 08, 2011

after watching his speech, I finally realize why I did not like to study and find that it is a waste of time when I was younger. it is because I do not know what I want in life at that point of time and studying don't seem to help or make sense of life at that time.

I have always been stubborn in wanting to do things that I like no matter if people around me thought there is no future in it... even my dad thinks so haha... I now know there is a legend who sees things the way I do and we are all regard as social misfit.

but down the path, doing things I am passionate about I reap the reward, I know many great friends who shares my passion, a girl that understand and support my passion. Although I did not manage to gain monetary profit out of it but the experience I gain is so immerse that I never regret going down this path. Which I define as success.

but now as I begin to understand my life, going to school seems natural as it has a purpose. If I share my life, I would tell them to experience life and study what they are passionate about and when they need the knowledge. That's per say they will still need to complete basic education not necessary with flying colours if their passion don't lie in it.

"have courage to follow what you love and everything else is secondary."
"stay hungry, stay foolish"
Steve Jobs 1955 - 2011

Thursday, April 07, 2011

"I'm coming home
I'm coming home
tell the World I'm coming home
Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they've forgiven my mistakes
I'm coming home, I'm coming home
tell the World I'm coming"

for 5 years I choose to be alone, because of denial. at one point of time I just want to live my life all by myself. shouldering all the pain in life, until I muster the courage to open up to you. this song represent how you are to me and in my heart. forgiving my mistakes earlier in life and giving me a kingdom where I belong.


Monday, April 04, 2011

you make me see the world faster than anyone else. being with you is like speeding down the fast track, dangerous... and exciting at the same time.

I can't promise to solve all your problems, but I can promise you won't have to face them alone...

if I could be any part of you, I’d be your tears. to be conceived in your heart, born in your eyes, live on your cheeks, and die on your lips.

after I fell in love with you, I fell in love with my life.